MOTHER'S DAY 2013: True Faces of Rising Number of Over-40 Moms Revealed

MOTHER'S DAY 2013: True Faces of Rising Number of Over-40 Moms Revealed

In a bid to dispel unfounded, negative stereotypes regarding maternal age—and uncover the real benefits to children of the dramatically rising population of women having children after 40—AChildAfter40.com is launching the “Mother’s Day Album: For All Women on the Journey of Motherhood Over 40”. 

A leading support website for later mothers, AChildAfter40.com says the free online gallery is set to reveal the true faces and authentic voices of the growing ranks of women creating “a mother of an evolution” at the very heart of the Western nuclear family. MORE.

http://achildafter40.com/mothers-day-e-card-moms-over-40/

it finally happened

We washed a (dirty) diaper with our son's clothes.

I went to put the load into the dryer. Imagine my dismay as I discovered clumps of liquid absorbing stuff floating among the otherwise clean clothes.

I didn't have the heart to tell my husband. I don't know who put the diaper in the hamper and I don't care. It was 10:00 p.m. I put the clothes in the dryer, removed the clumps as best I could, and went to bed. The end.

Now - don't you feel better about yourself? I thought you might.

firsts and lasts

Despite the trauma I was imagining, we managed to ditch both the bottle and the formula over a few weeks' time without much to-do. The boy hasn’t been fazed much by the transition, and now I just offer him milk three times a day, water the rest of the time (I really should give him more credit for being more flexible than my fear-mongering imagination would have me believe). We hardly ever have juice in the house so it never occurs to me to offer him any. For some reason, I still have two baby bottles in the cabinet. They are surrounded by five different kinds of sippy cups.

I’ve noticed that I hardly ever use the pouches anymore – you know, the ready-made squishy foods for babies at the grocery store that are an absolute miracle for feeding. Once in a while I break one out, but for the most part we’ve learned how to feed the boy the same stuff we eat. I’m even thrilled to report that the boy has finally decided he likes noodles! It only took about four or five tries over a few months. (Still working on eggs, though. He takes a bite and lets it drop out of his mouth in disgust. Sigh.)

Yesterday we put away the baby monitor – the one in the living room, anyway. We really don’t need it anymore since the boy usually wakes a few dead people when he’s having trouble sleeping or has woken up on the wrong side of the crib. Somehow I’m comforted, though, seeing that steady green light glowing in our bedroom. I will wait until the day I give it away to a new mom this weekend, and then that will be that.

We also found new homes for the pack & play (which he won’t spend more than five minutes in anymore) and the breast pump (which cost a fortune but is fully tax-deductible). And of course, there’s the ongoing process of setting aside clothing he’s grown out of and adding bigger ones to the rotating drawers.

I’m already sentimental. My baby’s not really a baby anymore. Except that he’s my baby and will be for life. I often can't resist greeting him by saying "Hey baby!"

how to eat at a restaurant with a one year old

Okay, I’ve been slacking in the dinner prep area lately. I’ve barely cooked in the last couple of weeks, and most of my meal planning has come in the form of ordering delivery or opening a package of soup and breaking into a loaf of bread. Not that these are bad options, but I wouldn’t mind having a real meal here and there.

So yesterday I decided we’d just go out to eat after work and relax. Already, you must be thinking “What part of you gets to relax when you eat out with a toddler??” In case you don’t know what that looks like, here’s a quick rundown of the required steps:

1. Smile to the hostess as she seats you and gets you the highchair. Congratulate yourself for getting there right at 5:00 – before the main mealtime, and before most of the other diners get there, when the kidling is most likely to embarrass you by melting down.
2. Order bread right away so the kidling has something to do.
3. Break out the baggie of crunchy snacks for the kidling to snack on before the bread arrives, since he’s already looking for the nearest thing to bang on the table or throw behind him.
4. Order a beer. Hope it arrives quickly.
5. Admire your beautiful toddler as he charms the pants off of the restaurant staff.
6. Order food you think the kidling will also enjoy.
7. Watch the kidling drop every. Single. Bite. To. The. Floor.
8. Give the kidling more bread, and *light bulb* get a sippy from the car and put milk in it for the kidling to drink so at least he’ll get some nutrition.
9. Pick up the sippy from the floor – three or four times throughout the meal, setting it aside periodically since he obviously doesn’t give a sh*t about the sippy right now.
10. Pick up some of the food from the floor, breathing deep and hiding your embarrassment.
11. Somewhere in this, scarf down bites from your own meal (if you still have an appetite).
12. Give the kidling more bread. Give him a bite of your food and watch him smoosh it between his fingers, smear it on the table, and finally flick it to the floor like so many sticky boogers. 
13. Wonder how many staph infections he's likely to get by tasting the food after it's been smooshed on the table. If you haven't said grace and blessed the meal, you'd better do it now.
14. Let your dining companion pick him up and walk outside as the first tantrum rears its ugly head. He's obviously done.
15. Grab your server, grab the check, grab the leftovers and your jacket, and duck out the door hoping you've left a generous enough tip for putting up with you.
16. Leave your leftovers on the roof of the car as you drive away, only to watch them FLING off the roof behind you, and smack your head.
17. Then, my dear, laugh! Because laughing is much more fun than crying or feeling sorry for yourself.
18. Admire your beautiful toddler in the rear view mirror as he plays with his feet and smiles at you.

The end.

Oh - after all of this I did a little searching for helpful hints on eating out with a toddler. I don't plan on staying home for the next five years. Gotta get some toddler dining place mats for those tables, because... bleahh. Fortunately I did have some alcohol pads handy, and the stuff they picked up was enough to convince me that those self-sticking place mats are worth it. 

and the best parenting award goes to… nobody

I hate it when I snap at my husband for talking to our son as if he has no idea what we’re saying, and that he’s not a dog that only pays attention to cadence and pitch. He’s old enough that he probably does know exactly what we’re saying and will someday regurgitate choice words for us in all their glory.

I kind of hate it when it seems like I’m more effective at calming our son down. Or getting him to eat. Or whatever. Because it’s just not true. I could be smug at such moments, but I’m not because I hate the idea that somehow my husband might be internalizing some of these moments and assuming his heyday of fathering will come when our son is of a more interacting, active age (you know, walking and talking and itching to build model airplanes).

At every turn, I am reminded just by looking at him that our son needs both of his parents, and different isn’t necessarily wrong when it comes to parenting styles. I see it when he lifts the boy in the air and makes him giggle wildly, or gently tosses him around the bed as if they’re wrestling, or shows the boy his latest art project, or they watch The Simpsons together (the boy’s favorite show, part of his severely limited TV exposure), or even when he convinces him to try eating something that had never occurred to me to feed him.

Who knows, but those moments when I'm cuddling and petting our son  I could be setting my own stage for smothering or over-protecting him as he gets older. I can see that happening since I hear so much about abused children and victims of all kinds of evil. Some days I'm terrified that I'll lose him to some disaster, but I try not to think that way.

There are days when it dawns on me that I might be subconsciously competing for some kind of Best Parenting award. And that’s when I get hen-peckish and I hate it. Lord, help me to see the stick in my eye.

11 things I’ve learned in my first year of motherhood

I could go on and on about the minutiae, the tiny details of everyday living, but some things are more important (and worth repeating) than others. In short, I am stunned by my own previous naivety, understandable as it may be. I am humbled by the work of what I do every day and am even more humbled by the work that parents of bigger families do every day (especially stay at home moms and dads). So here are 11 things I’ve learned in my first year of motherhood:

1. My capacity for love has grown exponentially and expanded in directions I never thought possible. Of course that’s love for my son, but also for my husband as I have watched him become a father.
2. Parenting is hard. Even on the good days – and there are plenty of good days when I force myself to take in the day as a whole instead of nitpicking the hard moments like crying that I can’t resolve and exploding diapers that change my idea of cleanliness. I suspect that it doesn't get easier, but instead the dynamics constantly change. So I get used to doing things one way and he grows out of the need for it. Never a dull day!
3. I am forced, continually, to live in the moment. I’m surrounded by a never-ending list of wish-I-could-do’s, chores, meal planning, bill paying, and other comparatively meaningless stuff. But when my son is hungry and it’s time to feed him, or he’s tired and it’s time for the bedtime ritual, or he’s playing with his foam letters in the bathtub, or he’s getting into something I’d rather he didn’t (which, right now, is about every 45 seconds), I can’t think about all that stuff. I have to be right there with him, giving him what he needs and what he doesn't know he needs such as my lavish love and affection, gentle guiding discipline, and words he can memorize to help him communicate.
4. I am strong. Stronger than I thought I’d ever be on the inside, stronger than I was a year ago, and stronger on the outside since my son weighs about 26 pounds and I’m picking him up about 345 times a day. 
5. I am tired. Oh, I get up on time and do my best to keep the world spinning as much as it depends on me. But right now, my son’s an active crawler and I’m usually managing him in one way or another so that, by his bedtime, I’m exhausted and all I want is to cuddle up with my husband, my wine, and my couch. Thank God for early bedtimes that allow me to live with margins.
6. Patience isn't just a virtue. It is a life-saving discipline for maintaining sanity and cool-headedness.
7. Schedules are wonderful. Schedules are terrible. At the end of the day, though, the schedule is made for us – not the other way around. So I've come to think of a schedule as a set of parameters that is subject to change depending on the moment.
8. Most of what I've known as “me” has been put in a box and tucked into the back of a closet. Eventually, piece by piece, I will unpack this again. But by the time I have unpacked these pieces, I will find that some of them are no longer needed and others emerged from outside the box.
9. Parenthood can be incredibly lonely. Not only am I ridiculously busy with the day-to-day, but because I’m so tired by evening I usually don’t plan to do things with other people or our schedules don’t match up very well – so it’s hard to keep up relationships. It takes real work to stay in touch and find ways to connect, but connect I must. Isolation makes it depressing on top of exhausting, and that’s a bad space to be in. I constantly fail at this, but I keep trying.
10. The world is beautiful and full of wonder, especially when viewed through the eyes of a child who has never seen it before with pure, clear innocence. Everything is amazing.
11. Nothing is guaranteed and life is constantly changing, so perspective is everything, and as long as I focus on God and allow Him to direct my steps, I can do this. 

sex trafficking... imby?

There was this one day a few years ago. This one random day. My husband and I went to a restaurant (loosely defined), late in the afternoon, that's been around for decades which was a place we went on our first date. We'd been married for 10 years or so. We sat in a booth with torn pleather and the requisite linoleum-that-looks-like-dark-wood table. A few booths away we noticed a... group. Not a family. It was too obvious.

There was a woman and man who looked like they were together, maybe married but maybe not. There was a young girl with them - 13? 14 at the most? and a friend of hers, neither of whom looked anything like the adults. We both got the sense that something was terribly wrong, especially given the slightly racy attire of the girls and comparatively slovenly dress of the adults who were more interested in their food than the children.

The girls went to the restroom, and suddenly I felt desperate. I wanted to rescue them. Was I right? Was the Holy Spirit trying to prompt me? I did nothing. I sat in my booth and drank my water. I think we had food, but I can't tell you what it was.

I got up to use the restroom and it was occupied. I waited. The door opened and the two girls emerged, looking slightly more polished than before and ready for adventure. My heart leaped out of my chest - should I have said something? I did nothing. I stood there with my mouth open and eyes fixed as they passed me, oblivious.

I never forgot that moment, those girls, or that place. I have prayed since then, and felt the presence of the Holy Spirit as I petitioned for their lives. It's not so unlike many prayers in which I may never know how or when God honors them.

And yet, a black sticky film forms in my stomach when I hear about the fact that sex trafficking is still going on in America. And yes, here - in Denver. It's disgusting and highly profitable and must. Be. Stopped. Our mothers and sisters and daughters deserve redemption and the knowledge that the life they are in is not what God promises for them, nor is it all that is possible for them.

A recent article in the Denver Post on Sex trafficking in Denver highlights its prevalence, and I'm glad to know someone is paying attention to this.

I may never know the fate of those two girls or why I felt compelled to pray for them. But then, it's really not about me.